Maxy the Agoraphobic Bat

To My Beloved Royalty...

So, I have to get my final for my storytelling seminar... a screenplay and storyboard for a short film.... done by Tuesday. So, today and perhaps Monday will be filler. Sorry!

Question of the Day: I'm talking a lot about my agoraphobia through the character of Maxy here. So I guess.... not ao much a question but an invitation to talk about those things that cause you fear big or small that may not make sense to others.

I do ask that we keep the language used a bit restrained, in keeping with the all ages nature of The Princess. So, if we can choose to think of other words when the four letter ones may convey the feelings with far more succinctly and with greater punch, I'd be grateful.

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Chergel
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I have a pretty decent fear of being alone at night. Although I'm not a creative person, my imagination takes off when the sun does down and I start imagining all kinds of horrible monsters/ghosts/demons/whatever that are lurking just outside my field of vision. Also, pretty much anything that moves by scuttling will instantly make me feel uneasy.


Earlier today my girlfriend was telling me how she doesn't like aquariums or places where there's a lot of water/stuff hanging above her head. It just gives her panic attacks.

Submitted February 19, 2015 at 4:50PM



Will
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Right before I step out in front of my students for the first time in a semester, I get nervous [completely irrationally, but that's how it goes] the somebody's going to somehow 'recognize' me as trans or gay and make a big deal of it.


Usually I make myself feel better by almost starting to hope that someone DOES say something because worrying allows me to come up with all the fantastic responses one can have to someone being a jerk, and I'm just that smugly ready for whatever they've got to throw at me -  just try me, you know?

Submitted February 19, 2015 at 5:53PM



Nestor Notabilis
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My family.

It's something I find hard to explain to Western people but I've experienced car crashes, been near bombings, members of my family have been directly affected by bombings, and I'm not the least bit afraid of terrorism, lone wolf attacks or even the rough side of town. I comfortably alone walk through and even love areas my partner and friends think I'm vulnerable in at night. But the prospect of seeing my immediate family at Christmas, talking to or arguing with my Dad often fills me with dread. The build up to Christmas is often que for me to panic and worry about what might happen from November through to Jan. I think people find it confusing because it's a response they associate with abuse, and I haven't been abused.

Asian girls I've talked to about this seem to 'get' it much more intuitively. They seem more used to reading something like 'my Dad doesn't understand me' as a sort of...combination of pressure, hypocrisy, unrealistic expectations, utter blindness to the someone is in favour of how they 'should' be and demands for obediance- rather than as 'immature teenager-style rebellion' that Western girls tend to interpret it as. It's difficult to explain to you (and it's weird using 'you' because I am *also* English and European etc-) difficult to get the sense of the whys across. Because you know it doesn't feel irrational when the background noise you grow up with suggests familial abuse is an act of love, when you knew going to visit family in particular places meant your Dad could legally stop you leaving again. I have no idea how much of this makes sense or is relatable to you guys, but it may at least give an impression of why I might be uncomfortable with family and why I don't think everyone should come out.

Submitted February 20, 2015 at 4:29AM



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Well, I'm afraid of social interaction. I don't know why, most of my social interactions have turned out fantastically, I'm just too scared to have many.

Submitted February 20, 2015 at 5:32AM



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I was picked on a lot at school but a lot of it was people making fun of me behind my back rather than to my face so whenever I see people talking quietly or if a room goes quiet when I walk in I get sacred and nervous because I automatically think it's about me....

Submitted February 20, 2015 at 10:07AM



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I was picked on a lot at school but a lot of it was people making fun of me behind my back rather than to my face so whenever I see people talking quietly or if a room goes quiet when I walk in I get scared and nervous because I automatically think it's about me....

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Submitted February 20, 2015 at 10:08AM



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I fear Rottweiler-Dogs, its not im afraid of big dogs at all, but the big and black Rottweiler scares me every Time. Als long there quiet i had noramly no problem whit dogs at all, even whit typical "attack dogs" dont scare me. 
But when i was a child my uncele had a giant ungly allways growling and snatching Rotweiler as some kind of big nasty cuddly toy,,,  That Dog was the uglyest monster of my childhold, and my uncle makes a lot evile fun of me that the Dog will eat me alive....

God i hated that man and his Monster of a black-yellow hellhound.
I also dislike Doberman Dogs, they look mutch alike Rotweilers but a bit thiner.

Submitted February 20, 2015 at 6:42PM




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My brain.

I mean, yes, humans, stares, conversation, small talk, parties, walking, running, clothes, clothes shopping... but brain can top anything that anyone or anything external could ever throw at me.

Submitted February 21, 2015 at 11:24AM



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My family.

It's something I find hard to explain to Western people but I've experienced car crashes, been near bombings, members of my family have been directly affected by bombings, and I'm not the least bit afraid of terrorism, lone wolf attacks or even the rough side of town. I comfortably alone walk through and even love areas my partner and friends think I'm vulnerable in at night. But the prospect of seeing my immediate family at Christmas, talking to or arguing with my Dad often fills me with dread. The build up to Christmas is often que for me to panic and worry about what might happen from November through to Jan. I think people find it confusing because it's a response they associate with abuse, and I haven't been abused.

Asian girls I've talked to about this seem to 'get' it much more intuitively. They seem more used to reading something like 'my Dad doesn't understand me' as a sort of...combination of pressure, hypocrisy, unrealistic expectations, utter blindness to the someone is in favour of how they 'should' be and demands for obediance- rather than as 'immature teenager-style rebellion' that Western girls tend to interpret it as. It's difficult to explain to you (and it's weird using 'you' because I am *also* English and European etc-) difficult to get the sense of the whys across. Because you know it doesn't feel irrational when the background noise you grow up with suggests familial abuse is an act of love, when you knew going to visit family in particular places meant your Dad could legally stop you leaving again. I have no idea how much of this makes sense or is relatable to you guys, but it may at least give an impression of why I might be uncomfortable with family and why I don't think everyone should come out.

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I can understand to an extent, to the end of my experience. Obviously, though, there's the limit you delineate. Confused






Submitted February 21, 2015 at 9:57PM



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I have an odd fear of driving anyplace by myself; with work it's different somehow, but any other trip, like going to get a gallon of milk, leaves me making excuses as to whether or not I can just do without until my husband can go get it. Funny thing is I developed it recently; I can never remember having such a thing before the last few years. Part of me wonders if it stems from my having the worst luck with cars (I've gone through a whole set of tires in just 8 months, and had the brakes give out on me once at the bank so I had to park it and walk for an hour back to my house because I couldn't reach anyone on the phone), and just being afraid of the possibility of getting stuck somewhere with nobody being able to find me.

Submitted February 22, 2015 at 1:58PM



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